When I have a craving or life gets me down here’s what I do:
I pretend that I have a devil, red cloak and pitchfork in hand, sitting on my left shoulder and he is FAT! I mean like really really FAT…every time I have a desire to drink and I resist it, he gets a bit thinner. On a rough day, when I have had to conquer that desire over and over again, he is VERY, VERY THIN by the time I go to bed! No joke. It is how I deal with it, always have but now, he is so thin and emancipated that he is going to die, DIE I tell you! His pitchfork is going to fall out of his hand, never to pierce my throat again, he is going to drop to his knees and his cape will get filthy in all the dung that is around him cause he’s too weak to make it to the loo, then he is going to DIE. The end. Dead, never to raise his ugly, horned head again. His pitchfork will lay useless beside him and I will BURY him so deep in good, selfless deeds that he will NEVER raise his ugly head again!
Have a GREAT day and don’t let that Devil get to you! LOLOL.
Surrender means not fighting anymore. We accept our addiction and life the way t is. We become willing to do whatever is necessary to stay clean, even things we don’t like doing! NA page 22
This reading is really meaningful to me. In particular, because my ego is large and does not want to admit defeat in anything. Over the past few months, it has occurred to me over and over again, that my ego is in fact holding me back from staying clean. Sure,it gets me to GET clean but then, when IT feels like getting me into trouble again, IT pushes and pushes and tells me, that without a doubt, I CAN handle just one…now THAT is a laughing matter!
Understand, all us addicts, one is too much and 1000 is never enough…
One day at a time so, HAPPY 24 whoever and where ever you are out there…
God bless and keep you safe, healthy and clean for today. JO
Finally, I have a minute to write again! I’ve been away in detox, yup I said detox. No I am not ashamed. I would be ashamed if I did not ask for help. Our family knows where that takes us…my addiction almost took my life this time and thanks be to my Higher Power, someone was there that loved me and brought to the help I was so badly needing. Relapse is no fun…makes you feel like sh..
Please don’t EVER wait until you hit that point if you are using. It isn’t nice and you may not pull through.
Ask for help, there is a LOT of it out there and remember, you are NEVER alone! May Abba bless and keep you you safe and healthy, today and always.
Nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in God’s world by mistake!
Think about that for a bit, makes life easier to handle, knowing it is all predestined and no matter what we do, we are going to end up where we are supposed be.
There is great saying in the AA Big Book on page 417 (4th edition):
Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober; unless I accept life completely on life’s terms, I can not be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes!
Hence the saying: Serenity Prayer
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things that I can and the wisdom to know the difference! Amen.
Not so easy staying sober, is it? Cravings are the worst thing! they just sneak up on you and the next thing you know, BAM!!! you NEED a drink. It isn’t that you WANT one., cause you don’t, your body actually NEEDS one to stay in the “fake” sense of normalcy that has been created by the alcohol in your brain. This is the hardest part of staying sober! So, do something different, call a friend, grab a specialty tea, treat yourself to a cappucino…do something DIFFERENT to get your mind and body off the alcohol roller coaster!